Things I am thankful Thursday #6

Think about that quote for a minute... Know what I'd have? Not much... Here goes #6!!

1) I am thankful that, even though I work with a bunch of women, none of them have been catty or bitchy! That's quite hard to come by with a bunch of females working in the same place. But I love it! All of them are super sweet, and super fun! :)

2) I am thankful that I don't have kids yet... LOL I know I work with kids, and I want to be a pediatric nurse, but, just being around kids so much this month, reminds me that I have a goal, and having kids at the moment would make it so much harder to obtain that goal. It'd still be do-able, but so much harder.

3) I am thankful that my grandparents are taking care of one of my dogs for a couple of weeks. I love all my dogs, and I miss the one they are taking care of terribly, but it is also sort of nice to only have to worry about one dog at the moment. It's giving me a break. Kind of how parents appreciate a break from their kids occasionally... Yeah, same feeling!

4) I am thankful that I have enough smarts, that I WILL pass this paper that is due tomorrow by 3:30, that I have not even started yet... Yup. I am a serious procrastinator! Usually not this bad, but this paper does not interest me in the least bit, and really I'm not even sure how I am going to go about writing it. But I know I will still pull off at least a B! Confidence is key ;)

5) I am thankful that yesterday was pay day!! :D Woo hoo! LOL not that I am going to do much with the money, but that's money in the bank for gas and food!! And that's ALWAYS a plus!!

And that's all I have for tonight... I NEED to get this paper done....

When all else fails, hug the dog.

Today has been one of those days where I definitely need to hug my dog!!! Sadly, only one of my 2 that live with me are with me currently. The other one left with my hubby on Tuesday when he left. We thought it would be a neat idea to let my grandparents take care of him for a couple of weeks until my spring break. They LOVE that dog! And I mean that dog is like a grandchild to them!! Plus since my grandpa is having surgery in April, he's super excited to be getting to babysit. :) (Don't ask me what he's having surgery for... I can't remember... I'll find out and blog about it sometime though).

Now, on to the "fun" stuff of my day... :/
Well, this morning started out fine and dandy. Until I got to school. LOL No, not because I got to school, but because as I was sitting in my car waiting to walk to class, some jack ass pulls up next to me and opens his door soooo hard that I thought someone had backed into me. No joke. So, being a girl who very rarely keeps her mouth shut on things, yelled at this douche bag. As he's sitting there telling me no big deal, it didn't do any damage. I got out and looked, and it did scratch the handle, but the handle is a hard plastic material, so I wasn't too worried about it. But none the less, I was LIVID to say the least. So, once he walked away, I decided to leave a note on his windshield saying, "Learn some consideration, ass hole!" Then proceeded to move my car to a completely different parking lot. Because my luck, he would have decided to come out and key my car. So that already started my day off lovey...

After classes, I had a horrible horrible headache. So, luckily, I had a few hours between class and work. So I went home and took a nap, which got rid of my headache. That was an awesome part of my day- the nap. And work wasn't bad either! Although, so far, it hasn't been bad at all. I'm quite fond of watching kids play, or playing with them. It kinda takes stress away.

Anyway, Back to more BS. So, I got a message on FB tonight from my old manager from my last job in CA that I had before I moved to TX. Well, she told me that she just sent out a NEW W-2 because the original had an error on it. I'm hoping it was just my last name spelled wrong. Because I've already filed my taxes. Although, I doubt it was just a spelling error. He wouldn't need to send a new W-2 for that... So, now I am stressing about that. I will probably get it Friday or Saturday. And between now and then I will be contacting a few people and resources to find out what I need to do to go about handling this situation. I've gotten advise from my parents, but god love them, lol they don't really know what to do either. We're all kind of at a loss of what needs to be done. However, I am very much stressed and very much pissed about the situation. I have been working for almost 11 years of my life, and have even worked for small, local, mom and pop type places, for 6 of those years, and have NEVER had anything like that happen before. I just can't even fathom how something like that even does happen... I'm just at a loss. It's not like getting my taxes done was cheap in the first place. $215 just to get them done by a "tax professional" at H&R block, to only be getting $99 back.

Alright, now that I've vented, and bitched enough for the night. I am off to work on a paper for English!! I will be back tomorrow with my usual Thankful Thursday! Even with all the shit from today, I KNOW I will find something(s) to be thankful for!! :)

Things I am Thankful for Thursday #5

And here goes #5!!!

1) I am thankful that this week has gone by, surprisingly, fast! I thought for sure that it was going to go by super slow since my hubby will be here tomorrow, and I'm excited about it! But, luckily, it's flown by!!

2) I am thankful that my taxes are done. I did them yesterday, and I was super pissed off because of how much I had to pay to get them done, to only be getting $99 back. But I am so glad that they are done, and I don't have to worry or think about them until next year!

3) I am thankful that the hubby will be here tomorrow! We didn't get to do anything for Valentine's day since we live 4 hours apart, but since he will be here tomorrow, we get to celebrate! :) Just dinner and a movie. Nothing too terribly exciting.

4) I am thankful that Chem was canceled today!! I got to sleep in a little this morning, and then I ran some errands, and picked up the apt, since class was canceled! Sooooo nice! That means I don't have much to do this evening other than my laundry! YAY!!!

5) I am thankful that my financial aide finally came in last weekend!! Even though I got a job, I don't get paid for another few days, I don't know what I would have done if I was still waiting on my grant!! Plus, with how much I had to pay to get my taxes done, I would have been SOL on paying them... LOL Although, that might have been funny... ;)

And that's about all I have for this Thursday! Short and sweet! :)

Oh, Monday

Well, today started out strange-ish... It snowed here yesterday, and into last night. Found out that classes would be pushed to 9:30. My first class didn't actually start til 11, so it didn't technically affect my classes, but in order for me to get to class on time, with the way the roads and weather were this morning, I would have had to leave around 9/9:30 ish this morning. Which I decided against. Too many crazies on the roads in the snow. Plus, I am STILL trying to get over this nasty cold!!

Thursday, this week, will be 2 weeks! I hope it's gone by then! I finally went to the Dr. on Friday and got some antibiotics. Sadly, the antibiotics are making my stomach act funny. I have no appetite, nothing tastes good, nothing sounds good, I can eat a few bites of something and that's all I want. It's been weird. I don't like it at all. The Dr. told me to come back in today if I wasn't feeling better to get a shot, but I decided against that too... I'm kind of stubborn when it comes to Dr visits. I figure I still have enough antibiotics to finish off the week, why go spend more $ just to get the job done faster. Well, it would be nice to move the process along, but really, I'm not in too big of a hurry. And I am feeling a bit better.

Tomorrow's Valentine's day. I will be spending it alone, once again. This is the third year in a row. Not that I'm "alone" for V-day, but my husband can't come down until Friday. His cousin is getting married this Saturday, plus we are gonna do dinner and a movie (or 2) to celebrate V-day. I say 2, because I think we are gonna go to the drive in here where I live. I'm pretty excited since it's been YEARS since I've been to a drive in theater. It should be pretty fun. Can't wait to see him!! It's been a few weeks. But at least we are getting to see each other more than when I was living in CA. Since he is coming up this weekend, I really need to clean!!! LOL! I'm not really that messy, but I just haven't wanted to pick up here and there. I guess I'll be doing that this week too. Shouldn't take me long to do though, thank god!!

I'm enjoying my new job so far. Tomorrow will be a week since I've been there. I've been kinda everywhere so far. But I am enjoying meeting all the girls, and all the kiddos. I got to do a parents night out Saturday night. That was pretty cool. It's been a different job compared to all my other jobs. But I am really liking it! It's a bit easier than some other jobs have been in the past. And even though I am working with several females, there's been no drama! Which is GREAT!! I'm 24 and don't have the time for drama. So it's super nice!!

I'm due for an upgrade on my phone this Friday. Since I got my financial aide in finally, I am thinking about going and playing with the HTC Rhyme for a bit to see if I like it. It would be only $50 for me with my upgrade. It reminds me a lot of my current phone, which I LOVE! So, I think it wouldn't be a bad deal. But again, I wanna go in and play with it a bit before I decide for sure. I guess if I hate it I can always switch back to my current phone. I thought about the iPhone, but I know most people either LOVE the iPhone, or LOVE the droid. And I LOVE my droid. So I'm kind of afraid of switching over to an iPhone. Plus, I've played with my moms iPhone, and it's not as easy to navigate as mine is. Also, Brad's cousin told me her brother has had both, and he likes the droid better. Not to mention, the iPhone would still cost me around $150... I don't really want to part with that much for a phone...

Well, I haven't had too much excitement go on here lately. Just wanted to give an update on myself. All is well here, other than being sick of course.

Things I am Thankful for Thursday #4

Alrighty, finally Thursday again! It's been a long week...

1) I am thankful to have found a job. With that, I am also thankful to know at least a couple of people and resources here. I was in the process of looking for a job at a gym, but was told front desk wasn't hiring at the moment, and that my availability wouldn't really work for any other position. However, I ran into an old friend from high school who is the manager for all of the kids clubs at all 5 gyms. And she was able to find some hours for me!! (That whole story is in another blog...LOL). Anyway, I am so thankful that I ran into her, and that she was able to find hours, and that I now have a job again.

2)I may have mentioned this before in a previous post, but I am thankful that I am fairly independent. Tonight, after I got off of work, it started raining, hailing, lightening, thundering... All that good stuff that I can't really stand. While I was still shaky, driving and when I got home, I am thankful that I feel calm now. Usually, with this kind of weather, I would NEED for someone to be here with me, I would NEED to be checking the news. But tonight for some reason, I just feel alright about it all. I'm actually surprised I haven't called my husband crying yet too... LOL!! So I am thankful for the independence part and for the calm part.

3) I am, again, thankful that I know a few people here. I have been sick for a week now. I started feeling better, but woke up today feeling like hell. I tried googling Dr.s that don't require insurance and that don't require you to pay an arm and a leg. So, I used my awesome resources, and found a few places that I need to call tomorrow.

4) I am thankful to have a washer and dryer in my apt. I know that sounds so silly, and simple. But it's true! In my old apt in CA we had an on site laundry room, but it cost $1.25 to wash a load and $1.50 to dry a load. Plus I had to lug my huge laundry basket down the stairs, and around the corner, then back around the corner and back up the stairs. It was not a fun task, that's for sure!! So I am thankful that this place had the hook ups for the washer and dryer, and thankful that my husband takes care of peoples houses and luckily someone he watches houses for was getting rid of their washer and dryer.

5) I am also thankful for having internet! LOL Again, a silly one, but again, true! I went 2 weeks here in my new place without it, without cable, nothing... Even though I still don't have cable, I can watch most of my favorite tv shows online, and when I get the chance. So, it's pretty nice!!

I suppose that concludes tonight's thankful Thursday... I'm tired, and gonna hopefully be in bed SOON!!

Life is funny, life's a mess, sometimes a curse, sometimes a blessing

Ahhh music. I can always find a lyric to go along with how I'm feeling. Today SheDaisy really hits it right on with the above lyric.

I've been cooped up at home most of the weekend, sick, and trying to sleep it off. All the while thinking about how funny life really is. (And doing homework of course). By the way, today's no different. I went to my math class this morning to take a test, then left and didn't even bother going to my English class today. I'm feeling better today than I have all weekend, but I start my job tomorrow, and want to be feeling at least 80% better. I'll even take 70%.

Life. Oh boy. A lot can be said about life. It's funny how everything works out how it's supposed to. Not always as we planned, but the way it's meant to. My life plan, when I was 17/18 was to be married by 23 years old, then have my first kid at 25, and a second one at 28. Funny, now that I will be 25 this year, I cannot imagine having a kid within the next year and a half or so. And I was going to be living in California making it big in the movie/music industry. Haha!! See how that one worked out!! At 19 I did move to CA with my then best friend, and may as well have been boyfriend. I was married at 23, a 2 weeks later I turned 24. Now, only about 6 months til 25, I am living in TX, and thankfully, childless. Don't get me wrong, children are great, and I do want some, eventually. But right now, in my new life plan, children just don't fit in anytime soon.

Funny that when I was 17 I was dating a guy that I thought I could see myself marrying. However, come to find out, it wasn't love. Or maybe it was, it just wasn't meant for us to work out because life had other plans. Maybe life knew that I could do bigger and better things. Even at 18 I dated a new guy that I REALLY thought I was in love with. Again, life had other plans. And again, I think life knew I could do bigger and better things. It is just funny to think about the what ifs in ALL life situations. Not that I wish I was 17 and dating that guy again, but it's interesting to think, "what if I would have stayed with him?" I would have had to wait 2 years until he was out of high school. I probably would have ended up staying in my home town. I would probably be perfectly content working at a minimum wage job forever. Even the guy I was with when I was 19... What if... Well, I probably would have ended up pregnant at 20. I probably would have been completely content partying every weekend. I would have been content missing work to sleep in with him. I would have been okay that he was on drugs. And again, I probably would have been alright with a minimum wage job forever.

Instead, I found love in my best friend. We really did start out as good friends. I was even dating someone else when Brad came along. I wanted nothing to do with Brad at first. I couldn't even stand him, I thought he was way too childish to be in his mid-late 20s. At one point I started dating Brad, AND another guy. Both guys knew we weren't exclusive. I wasn't sleeping with either one either. I at one point told Brad I couldn't do it anymore. I wanted to just be friends and nothing more. Strangely, not long after that, we were dating again. He even told me that had I told him again that I only wanted to be friends we wouldn't have ever been together again as dating or as a couple. I'm glad that I chose to continue seeing him. We moved to CA a year later. Best choice I ever made. Still, funny how life shook my plans up.

Heck, even as far as jobs/work goes, life generally has its own plans! I thought I could be just fine, in CA, working either minimum wage, or I was gonna be a bartender. Never did the bartending thing, even though still, I think it would be fun. But 2 years into a minimum wage retail job I realized I needed more. I was no longer okay with living paycheck to paycheck. I know some people do, and they're okay with it, but it wasn't for me anymore. I decided to go to school for vocational nursing. I originally decided on that because it would be more money. However, once I got into a program and started the clinicals (hands on learning) I fell in love with the career I chose and decided to go for my rn. Who knew life was going to lead me in that direction? I never would've guessed!

Even with friends and family... Life is just interesting how it plays out. I had a good friend in high school that eventually screwed me over not long after we graduated. I'm not one to forgive and forget. At least not easily. Screw me once, I will NOT give you a second chance often. I know that can be totally unfair, but it's more of when a person screws me over BIG TIME. Not just, oh hey, you canceled plans on me... No. I'm a bitch, but I'm not that big of a bitch. I won't say what this friend of mine did, but it was pretty effed up. It wasn't until after I moved to California, and until after her younger sister passed away of cancer, that we started talking again. I don't really know why life decided that we needed to be in each others lives again, but that's that. I may never know why. But, I at one point had no intention of becoming friends with her again. But, as life would have it, life decided we needed to be in each others lives. We talk almost daily now.

Another instance with friends. I had another friend in high school. We were friends, but not best friends. Then, she hooked up with a guy I really really liked at the time. Hello.... Girl code!! You just don't do that. I ended up forgiving her pretty easily. Not real sure why, but I did. Then after high school, we became best friends. Inseparable. We did everything together. Even when she went off to college I would go visit her a couple times a semester. It wasn't until recently, in the last year or 2, that we haven't had much contact. We would still send each other cards for b-day's and holidays, but then I sent her a bday/v-day gift, and never got a thank you, fuck you, I hated it, I loved it, NOTHING. I was pretty pissed off to say the least. Little did I know that was the start to the downfall of our friendship. There is a lot more to it than just that. Again, I'm a bitch, but I would have forgiven that. I won't go into too much detail about what else ruined our friendship, but it had a lot to do with my wedding.

Again, funny how life decides who stays in your life and who doesn't have a place anymore. I may not always know why certain people stay and why some go out of my life, but I just have to believe that they were all for a purpose. Even if I can't see the reasons or purposes just yet. I'm sure some of my relationships were there to teach me that I did/do deserve better. And I'm sure some were to teach me forgiveness, in some way. And some, I may not know just yet. Even if I never know why, I just have to know that they were all there in different parts of my life to help me get through, or to teach me something. Something.

I love making and having a plan for EVERYTHING! Brad gets aggravated sometimes because I get annoyed when plans don't follow through. But, even just typing this up I've realized, more than ever, that life doesn't care about your plans. Life doesn't care if you're ready or not ready for whatever it's going to throw at you next. Life does not care. You can have all the plans in the world, to be married to a certain person by a certain age. Or to have certain friends in your life forever. But you don't really get to pick and chose. They say that you can pick your friends. I can agree with that, but I think life has more to do with it than anything. You can decide, oh I want to be friends with that person, but if life is planning something different for you, it'll definitely show you that!!

Be Awesome Today

Well, I don't know how awesome I actually was today, being that I am currently sick. However, I did get the chance to sit down with an old friend today to A)catch up and B)talk about a possible job.

Funny story... Tuesday I went into a gym to check it out and see about a possible job. As I was waiting for a manager to give me a tour of the gym, he was talking to another girl. I didn't happen to get a good look at her, I'm always kinda weary of how and when I look at people as I don't want to be rude. Anyway, her and I had passed each other on her way out. Again, didn't even pay attention. Turns out she had recognized me though. We had gone to high school together, but haven't seen each other in probably 10 years. So, she came over to say hi. Little did I know, she also works for that gym as a manager in the child centers (she's the head manager for the child center in all 5 gyms). So we got in touch via Facebook, and talked a little more about the possibility of a job in the child centers, since there wasn't really any jobs available at the moment elsewhere in the gym. Turns out she did find some hours. Anyway, we met up today to talk more about the job, and see if it was something I was really interested in doing. Also turns out that it is. I actually love kids, and want to eventually be a pediatric nurse. So I get to fill out all the paperwork, and start work this coming Tuesday! I've gotta say I am so impressed with the way life works out. It's kinda funny, actually, how it does work out. It's a job that is willing to be flexible with my school schedule (which is sometimes hard to come by), I will get the chance to work in all 5 gyms (which is also nice because some are closer in proximity to my apt than others), I also know the manager (which is good because she's even seen me work with kids), and of course the perk of being able to use the equipment at all 5 facilities.

Also, another positive of the day, my glasses FINALLY came in!!! They were here Monday, but they had to ship them back because there was crack in one of the lenses. Went by today though, and they were in and ready to go! It's amazing how much clearer and brighter everything is when you have a good pair of glasses! LOL

On a less positive note, I have a TON of homework to finish this weekend. To top that off, I definitely have a cold of some sort. I took some nyquil last night, and dayquil today. Will be taking more nyquil tonight and sleeping in wayyyyy late tomorrow so hopefully I'll be ready to conquer, hopefully, most of my homework so that Sunday I can just rest some more before school on Monday.

And with that, I am out for the evening! Gonna finish catching up on last nights shows, and take some nyquil and hit the sack!

Things I am thankful Thursday #3

And so it's Thursday again! Which means, Things I am thankful Thursday! I think I might have mentioned this before, but I am SOOOOO glad I decided to do this every Thursday. I can be quite the negative person and I get so worked up and pissed off so easily sometimes, that it's easy to forget that I do have things to be thankful for! Anyway! Here goes!!

1)I am thankful for the opportunity to be able to go to school and further my education. I know that I get bored with school easily, there are some days that I just don't want to go anymore, and it's not exactly cheap. But to be honest, I am glad that I live in a country where I CAN get financial aide, that I CAN get loans (if I need them), and where I am ALOUD to go to school. I know some countries don't have those options, and sometimes no option of school at all due to none near by, can't afford it at all, different laws stating that they can't, etc. So even though I definitely get tired of going really quick, I am glad that I have the opportunity to go at all.

2) I am thankful that I have means of transportation. It may not be mine, it is under Brad and his moms name, and we may still be making payments on it, but I am thankful that I have it, that it is in great, working condition, and that it gets me where I need to go. If I lived somewhere where public transportation was easily available, and it was such a crazy city (Las Vegas, New York...) I may not need or want a car. But even in CA, when I was there, sure some places were in walking distance, and sure there was buses available, and the train, but with my school and work schedule there, none of those were very helpful. And now in TX even WORSE! So I am thankful that I do have a good working car.

3) This one is gonna sound funny, but I am thankful that my mother works for AAA. Because she works there, she is able to get us a membership to AAA services. And even though I haven't needed those services often, I have definitely had to use them once or twice before. I see people on the side of the road with car problems, or trying to fix their own flat tire (no I don't stop to help, as a female, unfortunately, I'm scared to death to stop), and I do feel bad for them, but I am thankful that I have that resource available to me so I don't have to worry (too much anyway).

4) I am thankful for my grandparents. Both sets. And yes, I am fortunate enough for both sets of grandparents to still be alive, and semi-well. I say semi-well because one of my grandmother's memory seems to be slowly but surely deteriorating, and she has had breast cancer as well, and one grandfather has macular degeneration in both eyes, which he is currently getting treated for, and he has also had prostate cancer. So I am very lucky for both of them, and for my other grandmother and grandfather to still be alive. I am also thankful that both sets are willing to help my husband and I when they can. Which in the past couple of years has been really really helpful.

5) Another strange one, but I am thankful to have come across a young author, law maker, and sexual abuse survivor herself, Erin Merryn. Last year, while I was still just engaged, for some reason a lot of my past abuse was becoming an issue. Not to my relationship, but just in general. I felt like i needed more healing of sorts, I guess you could say. So I searched the web looking for some kind of self help, how do I keep the past in the past, kind of books. I came across a lot of books that were more of devotionals to be done with a partner or family member. And that's not really what I was looking for. I finally came across a book with the title of, Stolen Innocence. I read more on what it was about, and realized it was more of an autobiography, or more of a published journal even, from the author. I found it on Amazon, and ordered a used copy for around $7. I read it in 2 days. I cried, I laughed, I shook my head in agreement, I wanted to hug someone, I wanted to punch someone. It was just one of those kinds of books where I could REALLY relate to the author. I looked her up on Facebook and friended her, and also found the law she is trying to get passed in every state and "liked" it on Facebook as well. I've been able to send her emails, and she responds. Maybe not right away, but she still takes the time to do so. I feel that reading her books helped me get that little bit of assurance that I was not alone, that I still felt like I needed. LOL now that I've written a novel, almost, on just Ms. Merryn, here is a link to her website. http://www.erinmerryn.net/erins-law.html
I suggest everyone take a look. She is an amazing young woman, and I cannot wait to, hopefully, see this law passed in every state!! Take a look at her website and you can find out more about what the law is. :)

And that's that for this weeks Thankful Thursday!!! Have a lovely evening!