Keep calm and drink wine

Ohhh I wish I had some wine right now! I could definitely use a glass... or two today. It has been, without a doubt, Monday. That is for sure!!

So, last night I had planned on going to bed at a reasonable time so I could get up early this morning and go work out. Well, I took some Excedrin PM which helps with headaches but it is also a sleeping aide. And yes, I realize sleeping pills can be addicting. However, I'm not one of those people who give 2 shits about that. I would rather get a good nights sleep and wake up feeling rested and in a good mood than sleep like hell, wake up every hour on the hour, then be a raging bitch the next day. Not only is it good for my health, it's good for those who have to be around me too. Anyway, took sleeping pills around 8PM figuring I would be in bed by 10. Well, I was in bed by 10... But for some reason I still ended up being super restless ALL night. I wasn't up every hour on the hour, but I was up every couple of hours or so, neither dog slept with me all night (which I didn't like since I'm used to them being right up against me), I kept itching like crazy, then I'd toss and turn and toss and turn, then I'd get itchy again, then my sweats got tangled around my legs... It was just a bizarre night! And as far as I know it wasn't a full moon. At least if it was, I'd feel better about how the night went.

So I had already woken up in a cranky mood because of how I slept last night. But I also wanted to work out this morning, but didn't because of the shitty sleep. Then I get to school only to find that my math professor had jury duty today, and sent a sub in. Which would seem fantastic, but she has the same teaching style as him. Which is NOT good, I might add. Then after Math I had my English class which wasn't too bad. We watched a short film that was made from a short story we were supposed to have read over the weekend. (I didn't read it) But all in all English wasn't too bad today.

Since I wasn't able to work out this morning, I took my gym bag with me to school today with all my gym clothes in it so I would go straight from school to the gym. I figured if I stopped home first, I would just stay. Well, after my English class, I was beyond ready to hurry up and get to the gym! Go figure, a coca~cola truck was parked RIGHT behind me, blocking me in. I had to wait 10 minutes for someone to finally come out and leave. what really irks me about that is in the same parking lot, and even closer to the building he was in, was a row of EMPTY handicap parking spaces... UMMMM HELLO?!?! Sigh...

And there's the pic of the lovely coke truck blocking my (blue) car in...

I did finally get outta there... On my way to the gym I called the vision center to see if my glasses had arrived since they were supposed to be here today. They had arrived, but had a crack in one of the lenses so they had to send it back out. I'm actually kinda bummed, I would like to have my new glasses in already! Not only that, but I'm kinda irritated that they didn't call me and tell me that... If they told me that they would be here today, and they were, but had an issue, I would have appreciated a phone call from someone telling me the situation. Sooooo... Once at the gym everything was just dandy. I am oh so very out of shape at the moment. Which I figured I would be, as I haven't worked out in around 7 months. But, I am surprised at how out of shape I really am... Goodness!! I only worked our for 20 minutes and I thought I was about to die!!! I ran on the treadmill for 2 mins then walked for 2, then ran for 2 then walked for 2... Then I did 2 sets of 15 squats, and 2, 1 minute planks. And I am absolutely BEAT!!

On a far better note, and I'm sure this isn't the first time and probably not the last time I say this, but I easily have the best in-laws EVER! My mother-in-law in particular is who I wanna talk highly of tonight. Though my father-in-law is pretty great also. My MIL called me last night to see how school was going, and to see if I had gotten my appt with a gyno here in town, and to see if I had the funds to go, and also to see if I had the funds to last me until next month when I will receive my "left over" money from the pell grant for this semester. I really did get so lucky when I met Brad, and married him and his family. I feel like a lot of times I have really shitty luck, because a lot of times I do, but I definitely got lucky in that department at least! Even his dad, my father-in-law, would do anything for me. Even though he may not have a lot, and even though his health isn't fabulous. He would still help me out first, before helping himself. I really don't know what I did to deserve these kinds of people in my life, but I am so very glad that they are there and that they love and care about me, even though I'm not their actual daughter.

And with that, I had better get off of here and go write my paragraph on the short story/movie from today!!

Things I am thankful for Thursday #2

It's been a long week. And I've had a LOT of bitching and moaning going on this week. So, I must say I am GLAD it's things I am thankful Thursday!!

1) I am thankful that my glasses will be here next week. Even though I can see with my old pair of glasses, and actually I don't even wear them that often, I cannot wait to get this new pair in! I see sooooo much better while driving at night with them!

2) I am thankful that really the only thing I have to stress about is money. Yes, money makes the world go round. And yes, I have to have money to live. However, it could be worse! I could be living in a box... I could have an incurable and terminal illness. I could have absolutely nothing or nobody in my life. But instead I have friends, family, a roof over my head, transportation, and enough money to get me by day to day.

3) I know this one is silly, but I am thankful for my dogs. They love me unconditionally. I can come home from a rough day at school/work, tell them I hate them and that they are ass holes, and they still come running up to me excited to see me, and with love in their eyes. They are definitely like my babies/children. Definitely my best friends, after Brad of course.

4) I am thankful for the way my parents raised me. It wasn't always easy as I was the first born, therefore the guinea pig. But they taught me that respect is earned, but at the same time, you need to give people the benefit of the doubt. They taught me that you have to work hard to get by. Not to judge people. To be independent because you never know when you will have only yourself to depend upon. To speak your mind even if others disagree. Stand up for yourself. No matter what, you are beautiful. Getting spanked or grounded wasn't a bad thing. Well, it was at the time, but now I realize that it was an important part of them trying to teach me. Even though both parents have been far from perfect, I'm very thankful that they raised me well.

5) I am thankful for the chance to ever have lived in CA. I miss it like crazy. Especially with all the dirt, wind, and cold temps here in TX. And I may never live in CA again. But I've come to the decision that that's okay. It was fun, it taught me some things, I met some awesome people there, I decided to go back to school while I was there. Had I never moved to CA I don't know if I would have learned the things I did about myself and others, I definitely wouldn't have met the awesome people I did, I might not have decided to go back to school. So I'm very thankful for that experience.

And that's that for this Thursday! ;) Like I said last Thursday, no negative nonsense on my thankful Thursday's! So I leave you with my positiveness! <3

How to be happy: Stop comparing yourself to others

How true that quote/statement is! And no, that is not actually what my blog is on tonight... LOL I just LOVE it!
No, my blog is gonna be a negative one tonight. There's your warning. I WILL be bitching tonight. If you don't wanna read it or hear it, RUN. NOW! LOL!!

Today's been actually a relatively decent day. Chem went well, Psych went well... However, I realized, recently, that I haven't had my "yearly womanly" exam in, well almost 2 years. They do tell you now days that if your results come back normal 2 years is acceptable. But, since I am fairly new to the area still, I figured it doesn't hurt to find a gyno here. Well, this is where I start complaining, and wanting to move back to CA. I called a few different places to check prices. Since I am a full time student, not currently working, and no insurance at the moment, I have a pretty tight budget. Yes, even for Dr visits. So anyway, called around, and the cheapest I could find was $150. And that was at Planned Parenthood. By the way, I absolutely support Planned Parenthoods around the country. Although, here in Lubbock, they've lost their funding. Therefore none of their services are free anymore. Maybe $150 doesn't sound bad to some of you. But again, I am currently jobless, insurance-less, and a full time student. So, yeah, $150 is kinda a lot. (I had this issue when trying to get my birth control here in TX too...) Now, go back to me wanting to move back to CA. When I lived in CA, I could go to the Planned Parenthood and EVERYTHING was free to me. Birth control, exams, etc. FREE! I just had to have gas to drive the 4 miles from my apt there, to the PP clinic. Simple! So, living here, I have become very frustrated with everything dealing with woman's health. Not even just very frustrated, more like EXTREMELY frustrated. I even had a break down, or 2 this afternoon because of stressing about how I am gonna pay for that. I've been trying soooo hard to be okay with living in TX after living in CA. And honestly, I think I've done fairly well. But days like today make me wanna move back to CA like, tomorrow!!

So even though I'm bitching tonight, I also feel the need to say, once again, how much I love and appreciate Brad. I called him earlier to tell him the ridiculous costs for gyno appts. (I'm sure other Dr appts are probably just as expensive here.) But I started crying. As I said, I definitely had a breakdown, or 2 today. And every time I do have a breakdown, including today, I usually call Brad. He may not always be able to make me feel better, but the fact I know I can call him, and he listens, and he does and says what he can to make me feel better, is all I really need. In the 4+ years we've been together, I don't know how many breakdowns I've actually had. But, since I am female, and tend to be quite emotional, I'm sure I couldn't count them all on both hands... And through all of them, he's been there. Maybe not always in person since we've lived in 2 different states for over 2 years now, but even just on the phone. He doesn't tell me to suck it up and get over it, he doesn't tell me how selfish I'm being (and most of my breakdowns are pretty selfish), he doesn't remind me that it could be worse. He either, in person, holds me and lets me cry it out, or over the phone he still lets me cry it out and just tells me he loves me and that it'll be okay. I love it! I love him! He is seriously the perfect person for me.

Okay, well see, I guess I had some good things out of today! :) It never hurts to be reminded how much a person means to you. No matter how you're reminded.

I refuse to lower my standards to accommodate those who refuse to raise theirs.

Well, this weekend hasn't been long enough. I have worked on my math homework all 3 days (Friday, Saturday, and Sunday). However, with almost 200 problems, I'm not sure how to go about this... Well, actually, I am sure, I just don't know if I want to invest THAT much time into the homework when we don't even get graded or any points on it. He wants us to do the homework so we are prepared for the tests and quizzes. Which I get, but it would be nice to NOT have almost 200 problems, and it would be awesome if we got some sort of points also. Luckily, I did find out that there is tutoring on campus. Which is nice, because a lot of this is coming back to me, but there's some problems that I am having to skip over. They look familiar, and I know I've done them before, but taking a semester off, I just can't remember how to do them for the life of me.

On Thursday I also decided that I want to minor in psychology. After only 2 classes, one was an intro to the class (syllabus, hi I'm your teacher, this is what I expect) kind of stuff... And the other was an intro to the history of psych. Based on just the history I have decided that it is VERY interesting, and I think it will help me in my nursing. So why not? I need to make an appt to talk to a counselor about how I go about doing so. But, I'm gonna wait and make an appt for about a month or so. The counseling office, I'm sure, is still busy with students wanting to add classes, drop classes, find out what classes they need, etc. But, I am very excited about this discovery of psychology! :)

I believe I stated in an earlier post, that I took my apps back to the few places I picked them up from. At hot topic I was told to call them today around 11 am. So I did, and I've got an interview Wednesday at 3 pm, after class. It's kinda strange. I've always wanted to get a job at hot topic. I know that seems completely juvenile, and it really is, but I think it would be a fun part time job, for now, while I go to school. Plus I love the idea of not having to wear a uniform, and I also love the idea of not having to cover my tattoos and take my piercings out. I really don't have THAT many piercings. On my face I only have my nose pierced, but I do remember applying at Victoria Secret once, and was told I'd have to take that out. So I said forget it. It's one thing when I'm a nurse making more than $9/hr, but it's totally different when it's just a job, not a career, and it's not paying me near enough anyway. And as far as my tattoos, I can easily cover ALL of them with just a t-shirt and jeans. However, some of my t-shirts don't cover my upper arm tattoo. So it will be nice to not have to rush home to change, or make sure I have something in the car to change into. So, keep your fingers crossed that I can get it! Anything will help for now!

I had lunch yesterday with an old friend and her family. It was super nice! Her kids were wonderful, and adorable! It's nice that I do know a few people here before I moved. When I moved to CA I didn't know anybody. Other than my hubby, but that's cause we moved there together.

Whelp, back to my math homework!!! :)

You're gonna be a huge success.

So, I had my optometrist appointment yesterday. Since I'm on my moms insurance for that, the co-pay was only $20. Luckily, her insurance also covered frames up to $145, and the frames I loved were only $140. So my total for everything was only $20! It was awesome! However, he did say that I've got something goin on with the muscles in my eyes and he's only ever seen it in people with thyroid problems. Well, as far as I know I don't have thyroid problems. And I don't have a family history of them either. My eyes have gotten worse in the last couple of years, however, not too much worse. Thank goodness! Even though I'm supposed to wear my glasses ALL the time, I generally only wear them when I'm in class, if I'm driving long distances, and if I'm driving at night. If I'm just driving around town, or sitting at home, or at work, etc., I don't wear them. He told me though that I need to start wearing them all the time. However, I won't be. Usually, if your eyes aren't TERRIBLE (like mine), and you wear glasses ALL the time, your eyes have the potential to get worse faster. I'm not willing to risk that.

Today I took back the applications I had picked up last week. I'm supposed to call Hot Topic back on Sunday. Hopefully, fingers crossed, I get that one! LOL I wouldn't mind any of them, but at hot topic I wouldn't have to remember to cover my tattoos daily. Plus, to be able to wear jeans and a t-shirt to work would be AWESOME!!! I hate having to wear uniformed clothing... I understand why it's done, I just don't like it. I'd rather be able to go straight to work from school if I need to and not change clothes.

I also signed up at a gym last night. It's a fairly new gym here. Planet fitness is the name. They are a franchise, but their prices aren't bad. I really need to get back into working out. I've gained the 20 lbs back that I lost before my wedding. And oddly, the weight feels like more than just 20 lbs, it looks more than 20 lbs, and I just feel like crap. So, it's time! My trainer that I had in Cali and I are friends on FB. She's awesome! She was not only a trainer, but a friend! She told me yesterday, "I can be a virtual trainer." LOL I love it! I can really use the motivation!!

I believe that's all I've got tonight... I'm glad even though schools started, I've still been keeping up with my blogging! It's kinda awesome actually! :)

Things I'm thankful for Thursday #1

Well, here goes my first thankful Thursday! I'll be listing 5 things I am thankful for, and be giving a description of what I am talking about. Enjoy!!

1) I am thankful that Thursday's is my last day in the school week. I know this week only had 3 days of school for me since we didn't have class on Monday, but it's always nice when you don't have to go on Friday's!!

2) I am thankful for my wonderful husband/best friend. I'm not sure how I got so damn lucky. He moved to California for me (not that he'll admit that it was for me specifically) while we were just friends, he has been a huge supporter of me going back to school, he loves me even when I can be tough to love. He's just fantastic all around.

3) Not only am I thankful for Brad, but I am thankful to have married into such an awesome and supportive family. His mom, dad, brother(s), aunts, uncles, cousins. All of them! They've taken me under their wing, as their own family, from the beginning! No 21 questions, no skepticism, nothing! I love them!

4) I am thankful to the REAL friends I have. That may only be a handful or so, but they are so very awesome! Yes, on FB I may have 300+ "friends" but not all are real, or close friends. My real/close friends know me, they get me, they don't disappoint, and they, like Brad, love me even with my flaws.

5) I am thankful for the chance to go back to school. I never had a desire to go to college after high school. I didn't have the best grades in high school. I didn't/don't really have the money it generally takes to go to college. However, somehow, someway, I/we are making it work. And in the end, we know it will be beneficial for us and for our future kids.

And that wraps up my "Things I'm thankful for Thursday" for this week! No complaining from me tonight! On Thursday's, I will be focusing ONLY on the things I am thankful for! :)_Have a lovely evening!

"Nothing is permanent in this wicked world, not even our troubles."

That quote comes from Charlie Chaplin. And let me just say, thank god they aren't permanent!! Cause today was rather troublesome... LOL okay, not the whole day, but as usual, it had its ups and downs.

Last night, I actually got a full night of sleep!!! I made sure I was actually lying in my bed by 11 and left my phone on my night table. I wanted to play on facebook more, and play a game, but I decided I NEEDED decent sleep! And I got it! The fact that my ass hole neighbors didn't play their music last night helped as well.

Today I had my math class and my English class. Let me just say, I can guarantee, already, that I will have to get a tutor for math. I was already a little worried since I had taken a semester off, however I got into class today and almost cried! I hope the instructor isn't actually THIS bad. Because he was seriously TERRIBLE today! Read role, hit points of the syllabus, then went straight into the math. Which is fine, I kinda expected that with a math class. However, he stood at the front of the class and just wrote on the board. What's so wrong with that you ask? Well, he was giving the definition for this, and the definition of that, then would give an example. Again, you may still be asking, what's the issue? Bear with me... He didn't give us time to work the examples (I learn math better by DOING the problems, not watching someone else do them) and when he was working the example problems (he was doing them in 2 minutes, his degree is in math! DUH) he was not explaining a thing he was doing. I don't know if he expected us to know what he was doing already, or what. But by the end of class, all I had was a bunch of ridiculous notes, and the want to cry.

My English class wasn't too bad. It's gonna be interesting to see how I balance all of these classes that will have a lot of at home work to do... We'll be doing 3 or 4 essays, which really isn't bad, but we've got a lot of other junk to do in that class too. We'll be reading short stories, and plays, and doing a review on a movie. It just feels like a lot right now. I hope I can get into a groove where I can juggle it all. I do feel like I'm already at an advantage in that class though. The instructor says most of our papers are going to be research papers or papers where we will be citing sources, which in the class below this one, they never did. I however, when I was in Cali, took an English class and several of our papers had works cited. So I do feel that in that way, I'm ahead. It actually kinda made me wanna go back to Cali (a lot does that to me) but this in particular, because now I kinda feel like Texas is dumb... LOL! If that makes sense. Not really the state, but I guess their standards for schools aren't as high as Cali schools? I dunno. I'm just hoping I'm right and knowing how to cite sources and use MLA format will in fact give me an advantage.

I've also decided, over the last two days back in classes, that people should NOT be aloud in college until they are at least 21. I feel like I'm surrounded by a bunch of immature, little jack asses. I didn't go to college straight out of high school because I had no idea what I wanted to do. I'm glad that I waited because I didn't waste money and time with classes that may have ended up being useless for me. But at the same time, I now, at 24, feel like I'm behind. And really, I kind of am. But seriously, yesterday in one of my classes I had 3 younger girls in class that I wanted to slap! I know that's terrible! But they came bouncing into class, HEHEHEH, HAHAHA, Lalalala, hehehe! Then they sit down, and start taking pics of each other and posting them on facebook. Yes, I facebook a lot! Or I really really used to. Not as much anymore. Then it starts again... HEHEHE, HAHAHAH, LALALALA, HEHEHEHE! (In their high pitched annoying voices!) Then one girl says, "Everybody in this class is gonna end up hating us!" Mind you, they were NOT at all trying to be quiet. I wanted to pipe up and say, "I already do!!" However, I can control what comes out of my mouth. Usually. Then another one of them says, "Oh well, we tend to have that effect on everyone!!" I wanted to chime in, yet again, with, "If you know you have that effect on people, why don't you learn better people skills?" Again, I refrained. Sigh. Once our instructor came in, she had us do the whole, say your name and give me a fact about you, thing. All 3 girls say, "My name's so and so, and I'm a cheerleader!" OOOHHHHHHH!!! I get it now!! Yeah, not gonna like these girls AT ALL!

I went to deposit a check today after class, up the street from my apt. My bank is inside a grocery store, which is in a little plaza. I was noticing today that in this plaza there's a nail place, a Starbucks, and a vision center!!! I'm excited about that because I haven't been to an optometrist in over 2 years, and I can tell I need new glasses. My lovely mother found out that she could put me on her eye insurance until I'm 25. So, I have insurance to be able to go!! Which is so nice, because I put off going to the Dr all the time due to no insurance. That includes the eye Dr. So, I popped in the vision center to see if they happened to take my moms insurance. AND... They do!!! :) So I have an appt for tomorrow afternoon. I'm so excited! I know that sounds ridiculous to be excited about glasses. But I NEED new ones! I can't see so well... :/ It's not fun!

LOL Sigh! WOW I had a lot to bitch about today! Glad I've decided to make Thursday's "Things I'm thankful Thursday!" :)

The biggest mistake you could ever make is being too afraid to make one.

So, today was my first day back in school after a long semester off. Today I had Chemistry and Psychology. Not too bad so far, you know the usual BS first day stuff... Here's your syllabus, here's the class schedule, this is what we'll be doing, this is what I expect, blah blah blah. But, both of my instructors seem pretty bad ass so far. My chem class has a lab 45 minutes after the chem class is over, however, today since the instructor is the same, he decided not to hold a lab today. I don't blame him, although my second class didn't start until almost 3 hours after he let us out. I thought about going to get lunch, but didn't want to leave campus because parking was kind of a bitch this morning. Then I thought about going to the cafeteria, but walked in and there were too many people in that area for my liking. In real life, I'm not much of a people person, especially crowds. I do like to people watch though, just not interact with them. I know, people wonder how I can be going to school to become a nurse if I can't stand people. But first of all, more or less I can't stand rude, ignorant, ass holes (which is MOST of the population in my eyes), but when a patient is being an ass, I can totally understand. He/she is scared, doesn't know what's wrong, may not have insurance, does have insurance but having to deal with insurance companies is a pain, they're sick (I know when I'm sick I can be a total bitch). So I can totally understand all of that. But when someone is a rude ass in general, just for the hell of it, it really irritates me. And secondly, if I'm getting paid $50,000+ a year, I'll deal with all the ass holes in the world. LOL!

On my way home I had a dude almost rear end me. Luckily he didn't. Dumb ass was following WWWAAAAYYYYY too close. Apparently the person behind him was following wwwaaayyyy too close too, cause the guy right behind me did get rear ended. I know this is hateful, but since neither one was hurt I'll say it, they both deserved it. The guy behind me shouldn't have been riding my ass, and the guy behind him shouldn't have been riding ass either.

I've had a terrible headache for the later part of the day. I took some excedrine migraine earlier. Like way earlier. Usually that helps about 30 minutes after taking it, but today it is just now kicking in finally. Which I'm glad cause I was starting to think the only thing that was going to help was to go to bed soon. However, its far to early to go to bed yet. If I go to bed soon, I'd be up at 4 am, and well, that's just not okay.

I didn't go to bed until midnight last night... Probably not the best idea, but I wasn't quite tired yet. Well, almost as soon as I started drifting off, my lovely neighbors (not sure which ones) started blasting their obnoxious music around 12:30 or so. Then another neighbor (again, not sure which one) started banging on the wall to get the other ones to shut up. Needless to say, that didn't work out so well... So I guess they ended up banging on the door and yelling at them to turn it down. I really wanted to scream... I've decided that whichever neighbor it is that likes to blast their music in the early mornings must have a night/graveyard shift somewhere. Which I can understand that music may help them wake up, but I don't care to be woken up in the process. That's why I blast my music in the car.

I've decided that on Thursday's I'm going to start a "What I'm thankful Thursday's" on my blog. I'll be posting 5 things I'm thankful either from that day or that week. I know I'm blessed, however, I feel like I take a lot for granted sometimes or I get to be too negative sometimes. So, I think maybe that will help me see that I really do have more to be grateful for than I think.

I stay up late every night, and realize it's a bad idea every morning.

And tonight, unfortunately, won't be any different! Even though, I do start classes tomorrow morning. However, luckily my first class doesn't start until 11. But, since it is the first week of class, I have a feeling parking will be crazy, plus I've got a 30 minute drive to campus. So, I'll still be sleeping in, just not near as much as I have been!

I'm soooooo excited! I am typing this blog post from my desktop computer! I have been without internet at my place for the past 2 weeks. I've been typing my blog, facebooking, checking emails, and pinning (on pinterest) from my droid. So, it's nice to have internet back at home! It's funny how much we really do take advantage of the simple things in life. Such as internet, cable, washer and dryer. LOL! Unfortunately my speakers aren't working, so I had to go buy some ear buds to use for now. I'm not a huge fan of ear buds, but they'll do for now.

I cannot believe classes start again tomorrow!!! I know just a couple of days ago I was completely ready to start, but now that it's almost tomorrow, I'm kinda nervous. I'm starting a new school and have a crazy schedule!! My classes are as follows: Monday/Wednesday- College Algebra 11am-12:45pm, English Composition 1pm-2:15pm. And Tuesday/Thursday- Chemistry 1 (with lab) 11am-2:15pm (we do have a 45 min break between the class and the lab), Gen. Psychology 2:30pm-3:45pm. I know the times are GREAT!! But I have a feeling the semester is gonna be a rough one! I had a friend ask me if I was going to take any electives. But to be honest, I haven't taken an elective the whole time I've been in college yet. I really just wanna take classes that will get me to my degree the fastest. I didn't go to college straight after high school, and I just took a semester off. I know I'm still young, but I'm not getting any younger, and most people my age have been done with school for 3 or 4 years now. So I feel behind.

This weekend I am hoping to do lunch or dinner or something with an old friend who lives in Lubbock. I haven't seen her in several years. Her parents were my neighbors while I was growing up. They actually live in the same house. I stopped by to see them last summer after my wedding. It was nice to see them and catch up. I can't wait to hopefully get together with their daughter this weekend. I'll get to meet her 3 kids, and husband as well. Actually, if I'm not mistaken, I've met him before, but as I said, it's been several years since I've seen them.

Well, I shall try to call it a night now! Gotta try to get into a decent sleep schedule! (I've been saying that for a week now...LOL)

I've never been more ready for classes to start, ever!

Holy moley! This has been the longest week EVER, it seems! My husband left Tuesday, shortly after he left, I picked up a few things at the grocery store. Wednesday, I stayed home and slept most of the day, same thing Thursday. I'd love to get out of my apt and go do something, but generally it takes money to go do something. Even if you find something free to do, it takes gas to get there. Since the campus is a 30 min drive from where I actually live, I've been trying to do as little driving as possible in order for my gas to last longer. I don't have a job yet, so trying to budget without money is pretty interesting. On Friday I did go to the campus to find out where exactly my classes are and to pick up some apps. I talk about all that in my previous post. After my day Friday, yesterday and today have been just as lonely and boring as Wednesday and Thursday were. I can't believe how ready I am for school to start so that I'm actually doing something with my days.

On a more exciting note, I received a beautiful necklace in the mail yesterday! It's the teal ribbon necklace that I mention in my very first post. The teal represents several different things, but to make a long story short, for me it represents sexual abuse. Me wanting that necklace made a huge uproar in my family. If you'd like to know why, go read my fist post where I go into detail about it. Any who, my husbands aunt saw how big of an issue it turned into, and wanted to buy the necklace for me. I'm so excited its here and I can't wait to wear it!!

Lions, and tornadoes, and school... oh my?

Well, today I went to the school to find exactly where my classes are since school starts Tuesday. I've gotta say, I'm very impressed with how lucky I am! LOL! Without even seeing the campus when I signed up for classes, I did really well as far as choosing my days and times and where the buildings are... Let me elaborate to make it more clear. My Monday/Wednesday classes are only 15 mins apart from each other. I was worried that I was gonna have to haul ass across campus just to get to the other class on time. But, as my luck would have it, even though my classes are in 2 different buildings those days, the buildings share a parking lot. Same goes for my Tuesday/Thursday classes. So glad it happened that way! Hopefully there'll be plenty of parking close by so I'm not rushing to my first class of the morning...

I've gotta say, one thing that caught my attention today was in the communications/English building. I'd almost forgotten that I live where there's chances of tornadoes... Until I walked into that building and saw at least 4 of the same signs saying, "In case of tornado warnings please proceed to class rooms ......., ......, ......., or the restrooms across from ...... Because those rooms don't have windows and they've got a double wall." Ugh! Oddly, that was the only building out of 4 I was in today that had those signs up. Although, seeing those signs also reminded me that I need to have some sort of plan for when at home, in case of tornadoes, or other emergencies. Even though, having a plan isn't gonna make me any less terrified. LOL.

I've only had a couple of experiences with tornadoes in my lifetime. In my old home town, that wasn't a worry. Then when I lived in Cali, it wasn't a worry then either. Yes, I know, Cali has earthquakes, but just the couple of run ins with tornadoes, I'd way rather have an earthquake any day! So my first run in with a tornado was when I was in 6th grade. I was homeschooled so was able to travel with a set of my grandparents up to NY. We traveled through a lot of southern and eastern states during that trip. We happened to stop in TN for an evening. Just so happens we had to stop for gas first. So my grandmother got out to pay, and after my grandfather pumped the gas, he also went inside to use the restroom. About that time, the electricity went out and the sirens started. Now, I may not have ever been in a tornado before, but I knew what that meant. So, 11 year old me starts freaking out thinking I was definitely about to die. Needless to say, it did touch down, but not close enough to us that I/we saw the damage. So that was incident number 1, and really, that's all it took to scare me for life on tornadoes.

My second incident, was when I was visiting a friend ay school in Canyon, TX. We stayed the night in Canyon but the next night decided to drive an hour or so to Lubbock where one of her aunts live. We took 2 separate cars. The skies were pitch black and I tried to keep a local radio station on so I could get warnings. We arrived in Lubbock just fine, but it was hailing like crazy, lightening and thundering, and super super windy. We stayed the night with no problems. But when I got back to NM my friend told me that just 30 mins after we left, they had a tornado. This instance was really more of a close call for me than a scare, but tornadoes still terrify me.

LOL, well now that I'm pretty positive I'll have nightmares about tornadoes, I'm out for tonight!

Loathe is just a fancy word for hate.

Well, first off, let me just say I had a wonderful weekend with my hubby. He ended up staying a little longer than planned. An uncle of his was admitted to the hospital this weekend to remove a clot from his brain. Everything went well with that, thank god! He got the chicken wire up around the fence, and he hooked my computer up. I called today to get internet hooked up. They'll be here Monday afternoon to set that up. Most of the weekend we kinda just kicked back and relaxed on the couch. It's always fun to do that with him.

Back to loathing... Back in CA I lived in an upstairs apt. I knew people lived under me so when walking up the stairs, or walking around the apt, I made a point to walk as soft as I could. Especially if it was before 6 am or after 8 pm. Well, here in TX I live in a downstairs apt... I've got some sort of karma kicking my ass! The people above me sound like they are doing jumping jacks most of the time, and when they're getting out of bed, it sounds like they are jumping out of the bed. Then, I think its a neighbor to the right of me, plays music ridiculously loud until at least midnight. Sunday night was country, last night it was metal... Don't get me wrong, I love my country music and some metal music, but where's the consideration for others?! Sigh, I start school next week, hopefully I either get used to the noisy-ness, or it'll go away by then. I'm betting on neither. As much as I loathe apt living, its a good motivation to finish school so we can get out of apts!

Not too shabby

Yay! I was able to sleep in today! Not to mention, since I'm no longer stressed (at the moment) it was much easier to do so! I stayed in my pajamas ALL day today! It was Soooo nice not having anything important to do. Once I finally got up and about, I decided it was time to get more boxes unpacked. While unpacking my kitchen I decided to do some laundry too. It's ridiculous how much I missed having a washer and dryer in my place! When I lived in CA we had an on site laundry room. However, living upstairs and around the corner from the laundry room it made it a pain in the ass to do laundry. Plus the $1.25 it cost to wash 1 load plus $1.50 to dry a load, it made me not wanna do laundry. Not that I love doing laundry now, but boy its much nicer now!

After unpacking the kitchen, I went ahead and cleaned it too. Since I really haven't been here in a few months, it was kinda dusty. I also hung a couple of pictures in my bedroom too. It's feeling a lot more homey finally. Just have a couple more boxes to unpack, some more things to hang on the walls and I should really feel at home. It's not too shabby at the moment though! :)

I'm so excited! My husband is coming in tomorrow! Hopefully we'll get my desk put together and get the computer hooked up, while he's here. He'll also be putting chicken wire around our already fenced patio. The patio has a rather large gap in each corner that both my little dogs could easily get out of. And since they're like our babies, we don't want anything like that happening. I probably will not be blogging this weekend while he's here either. Have quite a bit to get done, plus just wanna spend all the time I can with him.

Never give up on something you really want. It's difficult to wait, but even more difficult to regret.

My husband posted a photo on Facebook yesterday with the above quote. And after the day I had yesterday, I definitely needed to be reminded of that! Somedays are so rough with school that it would be much easier to throw in the towel. Thank goodness for my best friend and biggest supporter (my husband), though. I'm one of those people that "collects" quotes. I love, love, love quotes! I can find a quote for just about anything! And speaking of my husband being my biggest supporter, I've got a quote for all you ladies! "For any woman to success in American life she must first do two things: Prepare herself for a profession, and marry a man who wants her to succeed as much as she does."~Cathleen Douglas I'm very blessed to have found a husband who wants me to succeed as much ad I do.

Anyway, enough bragging about my husband and talking about my quotes. Let me tell you about my day today... Soooooo much better than yesterday's! I still had to go and get my lovely $200 shot, but the clinic where I got it is so damn close to the school, I could walk there! Which is actually kinda nice because I can get my birth control there too! I got my student ID, and I thought this was cool, if I've got $ leftover after financial aide pays for my classes and books, my ID doubles as a credit card and I can use it off campus too! I've never seen or heard of that before, but I like it! Especially since I will be getting $ back, and its a half hour drive each way, to and from school. So that'll help with gas money!

Surprisingly, my day got better than that even! Luck was really on my side today! I had to take my math placement test at 1:30 today. I had 2 hours to finish the test, and it was only 12 questions long. The first one pops up, and I kinda start to panic. I had to take a semester off of school and so I haven't done this kind of math in a few months now. I did do some reviewing last night, but at midnight decided to call it a night. Any who, after my short panic, I decided to breathe and just calm down. There were a few of those questions that made me start to question my skills, though. I suppose I should tell you, I went ahead and got into a math course before taking the placement test so that way I'd have a full schedule. I put myself in basic algebra to be on the safe side. So, in order to pass the math test, the score you must at least get is a 75. I got a 108!!! Sweet baby Jesus! I tested out of the math I was originally scheduled in. College algebra is what I should've been in last semester. That's the course I tested into today! So even though I took a semester off, I'm only that one semester behind. Luckily I was able to drop my original math class, and still got into a college algebra class. I was shocked there were still 10 seats left, and on the exact same days and time as my first pick was!

I also bought my books today. That was super easy! They were so unbelievablely helpful in the bookstore, it was great! As a matter of fact, everyone I've talked to at the school, so far, has been super nice and super helpful! I am very thankful that today went much smoother than I expected and definitely more smooth than yesterday! Thank god! :)

It's just a bad day, not a bad life.

Today's definitely been a pretty shitty day... I went to the school today to check out the campus, and find where I need to be tomorrow to take my math placement test. While there I got a map of the campus, changed my address and last name in the system, made an appt with a counselor, and got my parking permit. Those were the good parts of today. I also found out that I HAVE to get a menengitis vaccine. That's right, HAVE to. I asked it there was a waver that I could sign to decline it. Nope, no such luck. That was bad news part one of the day. I was also told that I have to get it done, and have proof turned into the school 10 days before classes start or I can't be in class. Class starts the 17th, which means its due by Saturday. But actually Friday since the offices on campus aren't open Saturday. This is only the start of the bad news.... There's still more. The counselor I talked to about this gave me a list of clinics/health offices that offer the immunization. The few clinics that offer it for only $10 (without insurance) are out of the medication that goes in the immunization and won't be getting more for a couple of weeks. Well, I can't wait a couple of weeks, so I call a couple of the other places listed to see if I need an appt and to check the price. Both places I called are $204 without insurance. By the way, did I mention I don't have insurance? Yeah, $200 for a freakin shot!! But wait! There's more. In order for me to get the immunization I have to bring with me my immunization record, which I have no idea where it is or if I even still have it! I'm pretty sure the last time I had a shot that needed to be on an immunization record was when I was around 12! So, I call the health department in my home town since that's where I've gotten all my immunizations at. Here's the best part! All phones, computers, internet, fax machines, atms at banks, were NOT working today. Something happened to one single line there, and EVERYTHING goes down. So I couldn't get a hold of anyone, I tried to call my husband (before I knew what was going on) couldn't get him. He called me back, the call dropped immediately. Tried my dad, nothing. Finally my husband texts me and tells me the phones and computers were down. My dad finally got a good of me too and luckily I had enough time to ask him if he'd go see if they could fax my records, before the call dropped. But, since nothing was working, they're gonna have to try tomorrow. Oh yes! Also, have I mentioned I'm jobless currently? And am pretty broke. So my husband is going to pay for my shot, but he couldn't put money in my account because of computers and banks being down. Sigh... At least I found the school easily, and know where I need to be tomorrow. I just hope I can get this immunization done by Friday so I don't have to take yet another semester off. I've still gotta order books too... Was going to do that today, but couldn't find the bookstore and was too stressed about this stupid immunization!

Sigh, sorry this post was mostly bitching and complaining. I know I do have plenty to be thankful for. Guess we all have to have a bad day or two every once in awhile in order to appreciate the good days!

Edit about half an hour after this was posted....
Holy sweet baby Jesus! I mother effin found my immunization records! After looking through several files and remembering I was told once to keep it on me at a different school so that if anyone asked for it, it would be easily available. Luckily, almost 3 years later I still have the bag I carried with me and wa la! It was there! So, that helps my stress level a bit anyway! More proof its not a bad life :)

I'm not in Kansas anymore (not that I ever was...)

Well, today I made my 4 hour drive back to Texas after being able to spend the last 4 months with my husband. When I was living in California and had to make the 12 hour drive I'd always cry when telling my husband goodbye. Today was different. It was great being able to say, "bye, love you. See you this weekend!" Instead of, "bye, love you. See you in a few months." It still wasn't easy, but it was sooo much easier.

Tonight will be my first time, since September, to spend a night alone (with my 2 dogs), in my new place. He and I have come down here to my place to unpack a couple of weekends, but those nights were restless nights even with him here. I think its because I'm in a new, unfamiliar place. That's the first time in over 4 years for me. So far so good though. When I got here I walked my dogs and got the mail. I had a couple of Christmas cards from family and friends, and a Cosmo magazine that another friend bought me a subscription to for Christmas. I've got some pretty great friends.

My apt is in an awesome location! After I got my mail, and not eating all day, I decided to go get a bite to eat. It only took about 10 mins total to get to and from Whataburger. It's so close to my apartment, its unreal! And also, probably not good for my health LOL. I didn't want to brave Walmart tonight for groceries, though. That's on tomorrow's to do list.

I got all my boxes in my bedroom unpacked and put up except a box that has all my pictures in it. That's also on my list tomorrow, hang pictures and make my place more homey since I'll be here until I'm done with school. I also got my tv put together and set up in my bedroom. No cable yet, but that'll come soon enough. My mom got us the tv I hooked up for Christmas. It's pretty nice. I'm also impressed that I got it all hooked up by myself. Living on my own for the past couple of years has really taught me how to be more independent. I've always been pretty independent, however, having to deal with flat tires alone, other car problems alone, killing spiders on my own (I'm terrified of spiders) I realized that I wasn't as independent as I thought. I've become more so now though.

I was hoping that I could pick up some WiFi from a neighbor that wasn't password protected, but I couldn't be so lucky. So I sit here on my smart phone blogging. Internet will come soon enough too. My husband will be here this weekend to hook my computer up and hopefully get set up with a cable/internet bundle.

I realize this is my second post today. But this mornings had a lot to do with not being able to sleep. I don't wanna live back in NM ever again, but I wasn't ready to come to Texas yet either. At least not on my own yet. Guess I'd better put on my big girl panties and deal with it though.

Well, I've got another busy day tomorrow! Hope everyone has a wonderful week!

More about me

Well, first of all, happy new year! Hope everyone had a fantastic NYE and lived to tell about it. :) As you may have read in my "about me" my name is Rheanna, like the song, NOT the singer. My family and friends call me Rhe for short. I've been debating starting a blog or not because I seem so damn busy I've been putting it off for awhile now. Although a lot has happened in the past couple of weeks and I've decided to just go for it! Might as well try something new in the new year.

So a little more about myself... Well, I was born and raised in a small south central town in New Mexico. It's a very pretty place, however I have no desire to live there again. I was born 2 months premature. I've got a younger brother who's 5 years younger than me. My parents have been divorced about 8 or so years now. Ohhh sorry, back track a little.... Back when I was 5 my aunt married a man who was fairly well off and who owned a go cart track/mini golf/game room. After they'd been married about a year he started touching me inappropriately. I brushed it off the first time, cause I suppose I thought it was an accident. Turns out it was no accident. This went on and even progressed to indecent exposure, inappropriate touching, kissing, and forcing me to watch dirty movies even. Nobody knew this was going on except me and my abuser, until one day when I was 12 my mom found a journal entry that freaked her out. She knew. I had to fess up. I remember her checking me out of school for lunch one day and making me tell my aunt what was going on. That was probably the most terrifying experience ever, next to the abuse of course. So we took my case to our local district attorney. However, in the end I dropped my cases against him. His stories and my stories weren't matching up (of course) plus I was extremely scared of the man and really just wanted it all behind me. Fast forward to me being 15 years old. A cousin of mine, who I hadn't seen or talked to since I was 10 or so, has a case against him also. She was 9 at the time. I was so mad at myself for dropping my case because I felt like I could've prevented her from ever having to go through that as well. After 6 years of court for her case, he only got 1 lousy year in jail. Okay, fast forward again to 2 weeks ago. Keep in mine my cousin and I haven't talked or seen each other in about 12 years or more. She was in town for Christmas. I took her to lunch and we talked about our experiences. It was actually really helpful for me to talk about it with someone who really, truely understands. My husband and some of my family try to understand, but they'll never fully get it. Although I thank god for that.

While my cousin was here, our aunt, who's married to the (excuse my language) piece of shit, was going to go by and try to talk my cousin into telling everyone she lied about everything so that way "he" wouldn't have to register as a sex offender. She texted me to see if I'd come get her so that way she wouldn't be home if our aunt did stop by. I was so furious, I cried on my way to get her. I'm just glad that I can be somewhat of a support system to her.

I've done research on what color a sexual abuse awareness ribbon is. It's teal by the way. Yes, teal is also for cervical cancer, as well as a few other things. But for me, its sexual abuse. I have a ribbon with the word survivor around the ribbon tattooed on my shoulder. I'm not a victim anymore, I chose to be a survivor. I was looking for a teal ribbon necklace and found one on amazon. I posted it on my Facebook page a few days ago saying, "I know Christmas is over, but if someone wants to buy me a late present, I'd love this." I had a friend ask what the teal stood for and without telling my whole story and without naming a single name, I told her what it meant for me. Total, the necklace got 16 comments from supportive friends. Although the next day my dad calls me and asks me what I posted on Facebook that is causing problems in the family. I don't post status' on Facebook anymore, just pictures and occasional links. So I figured it must've been my teal necklace. I wen. t through and deleted a lot of my family from Facebook that day. I was able to see who supports me and who doesn't.

Sorry that part of my back story is so long, I feel its something you all should know though. So, back to happier times in my biography. I graduated high school in 2005. Stayed around in my home town a couple of years, and met my now husband there as well. He had just gotten out of the navy the year before we met, and was living back in our home town. I HATED him at first! He used to flirt with me all the time while I was dating someone else, and his flirting tactics were that of a 1st grader. You know, the push you down in the dirt kinda flirting... About a year later we were best friends. A year after that, we were dating and moving to CA together. We were together 3 and a half years before he proposed, and got married in June 2011. We've been together 4 and a half years now. He's working his ass off in NM so I can go to school full time. He puts up with a lot of shit from me! But that's part of why I love him so much!

I believe that's a pretty good start to my blog! Just a warning, I do usually type/write the same way as I speak. So there will be foul language occasionally and I might come off as a bitch sometimes. I promise though, I'm a pretty interesting person, and I have a feeling if I can keep this blogging thing up, it'll turn out pretty interesting too! Good night/morning folks!